I have been trying to find my secret world again. I was loitering in a life without beating hard for too long.
Sunday 11 August 2013
following my own steps
I have been trying to find my secret world again. I was loitering in a life without beating hard for too long.
Still deep in my heart
It has been several months since I sent to you my last
letter. This period was as always, full of surprises. Good and bad ones.
Life has become even more unpredictable and future so much
unknown. In that time, no matter what, struggles or challenges I have had to
faces, you always appeared in my kindest thoughts and memories.
I had desire to send you this letter many days, weeks or
even months before. Especially when I was visiting my little home town. After
my trip that I took to me peaceful and heavenly green woodland, I wanted to
share my emotions with you. I wanted to send you an immaculate painting of what
I saw during my trip in my human words.
However, I had and still have a feeling that a lack of any response from
you for my very last letter is a sign that you don’t want to see my words
anymore.
Despite of these feelings, I have decided to write to you
again. Just to ask you if everything is fine and how do you feel?
You are the person who will always stay deep in my heart and
my thoughts. Even though you already erased me from your heart, please send me
only one sentence that it says about your warm smile that appears on your face
You will always be in my thoughts
Tuesday 14 May 2013
Still beating heart...
The poetic workshop turned into a land of broken thoughts
and one useless mind. Everything inside looks like a room with kids playing and
loudly shouting around. Your pen, a half written piece of paper had gone before
you have realized it’s time to safe your little world.
Almost nothing survived.
Has your hand stopped writing forever?
No, through the ashes there is a sign, your mind is still
alive.
The only thing that keeps the poet thinking is the spark of
morning shining star
Monday 22 April 2013
Maggio
With this post, everything is going to be a little bit different. The new chapter appears in my book.The melody so connected with every written word. Every night in late summer nights will be always in my heart.
Thank you Ludovico for showing me a path to my secret life.
Sunday 21 April 2013
Oasis of solitude
My little window turned into a magical door that took my
eyes to a different world. The Piano song with the bird’s voice creates an unforgettable concert for my dying senses.A musical concert with the heavenly pleasure,
but at the same time deep inside the Arabian dry desert wind, goes through my
soul and turns the life-giving leaves into almost burning ashes! Is there any hope
for the drying heart, for the lonely camel in the middle Yemeni
wilderness?
It is time to close the little window and put the blue pillow
underneath my already half dreaming head.
Saturday 13 April 2013
.....
Wyczekujesz tego
jedynego listu, tego jedynego zdania z odpowiedzią. Cóż tego ze każdego dnia z
wielka nadzieje sprawdzasz czy te słowa zostały do Ciebie napisane. Za każdym
razem pustka i bolesne omdlenie. Osamotniony tak jakby na bezludnej wyspie
oczekujesz wiadomości która rozbudzi jeszcze bardziej to tęskniące pragnienie
Wednesday 10 April 2013
....
You felt like an animal wounded in both legs.
Supposedly you walked so proudly through your twisted path by
a strange life. However, you collapsed and laid down in complete stagnation. You wanted to raise your hand, but could not
do it. Only your eyes were looking ahead
and in the pure silence, begging for mercy appearing on the azure the winged
reflections.
You were like the God dreamer, but have become a worthless
thinker.
You recall in your mind only times spent close to the river with
the wind and the unique glare that appears only in the silent night. There are
still in your head this green bench and the glade painted in the colours of rainbow’s
flakes.
Maybe one day you will run ahead and you will find the green
bench again?
Tuesday 9 April 2013
Broken wings
Poczułeś
się jak
postrzelone zwierze w nogę. Niby szedłeś tak dumnie przez swą zakręconą życiem drogę,
a jednak padłeś tak nagle i leżałeś w bezruchu. Chciałeś podnieść rękę a
nie mogłeś. Jedynie oczy spoglądały przed siebie i w milczeniu błagały o
litość
pojawiających się na błękicie ptaków skrzydlate odbicie.
Byłeś marzycielem,
a stałeś się bezwartościowym myślicielem.
Wspominasz już tylko chwilę spędzone
nad rzeką w towarzystwie wiatru i pojawiającego się tylko nocą tego jedynego
blasku. Jest jeszcze w Twej głowie ta zielona ławka i polana pomalowana
jakby w kolorach tęczowych płatków.
Może jeszcze
kiedyś pobiegniesz przed siebie i usiądziesz na swej zielonej lecz calkiem nowej ławce.
Tuesday 2 April 2013
Love generation
Through words in this letter and warm thoughts I would like
to wish you calm and sunny days this Easter.
This emptiness that filled the distance between two of us,
sometimes scares me. From one hand side I want to make the little light in the
dark tunnel to appear but I don't know how.
Despite I am not talking to you, it does not mean I am not
thinking of you, that I am not coming back in my memories to warm spring days
that were also warm for both of us
Life is like a speeding locomotive that I wish to stop one
day on the small train station in the middle of the green forest. Stop the
train and fall in love within the silence around.
Start the conversation with the same moon that accompanied
me every night in my garden while I was talking to you. But this is unreachable
at least for now.
A few days ago I heard the same song that quite often I had
been listening, writing all letters to you in late May nights. Memories,
thoughts and longing came back for the unique state of mind. Not to mentioned
the evening walks in Southern France.
Monday 18 March 2013
An Island...
She also resides on an Island, but obviously smaller.
The island isn’t cloudy and linguistically diverse like
mine. But it is like a volcano with a burning fire and spurting hot water into
the blue sky.
Through her words I look at her life, on a day to day basis
in the country where she still has to wait till the sun finally comes.
Can I walk into her world by crossing the bridge built from
her words? Surely this is inappropriate! Or maybe I am wrong?
By reading – I imagine.
Imagination builds a new world. A
new world - a new place to live.
Recently like a new star somewhere in our Cosmos I was born
again in a different place.
Merely because of her written sentences.
I’m a traveller – lovely feeling.
Tuesday 5 March 2013
no name
Came back home this afternoon tired like never before. Even a fucked up hare’s guts by a hungry wolves pack, look a hundred times nicer than my
face, obviously. Had a warm shower to wake my body up, but even warm drops
worked against my alien nature. Not to
mention I almost mixed up the toothpaste with the Armani shower gel made in the
Greatest Kingdom of Uzbekistan!I smell so good – check me out!
I managed to get to my bed without breaking my old bones and
yes I’m lying down with the ugly smile on my face. Somewhere from the
background I can hear a French music. Hypothetically it is a French music, my
brain can’t understand the words from the strange written text in a foreign language.
Well every language seems to be so foreign to me now.
Can’t even finish the column. No petrol in the tank. My mind
that it used to be like a new Mercedes, has turned into a Nissan Micra without
MOT!
Goodnight all
Thursday 21 February 2013
My way
The world has become strange and unpredictable. The kindest rustle of the night's moon turned into the dreadful sound of a marching orchestra in a parade of dead zone. The early morning sun glimmers which was giving to a pure dew on the green leaves in the Zeus garden - colours of life, became the hot stove burning your sinless skin. You are like a little boy who runs through streets with eyes closed. A boy who just wants to run past the bench with minors attracted into an illusionistic world that has been created by one cheap injection. A shattered glass bottle of wine after a drunken debate last night.
Where is the world of singing larks and blushing violets on a spring meadow?
I run on!
Where is the world of singing larks and blushing violets on a spring meadow?
I run on!
Thursday 7 February 2013
Motivation
I mentioned on Friday to my friends that the upcoming
weekend will definitely bring the fresher and clearer nights for a silent
writer like me.
First and second day had gone quicker than I thought.
Saturday morning somewhere about 8:00 o’clock, my eyes said hello to the unexpectedly
silly and noisy alarm clock. My only though I can share with you here is or
maybe was “ Why me? “ Why the hell, is the
pillow so comfortable underneath my lazy and full of rubbish head? – Never mind
I threw my clock
somewhere deep into the Universe of my messy room and the noise has finally
gone. Yep it’s gone but not for a while. Bloody birds suddenly decided to start
a concert just behind my blurred window. Who told them that it is time to start
your journey from the Black continent and move towards to England? Don’t you
see, it is still cold and cold and sometimes cold again? Please fly away and
let me carry on sleeping in my warm nest. I am like the eagle during his retirement
time with only few feathers and dirty claws.
So Saturday was like the day with a lemon tea on the sunny
beach. Nothing happened! Do you understand it? Nothing, not even one single
move forward! What a waste of time.
I have had a thought to be a normally creative person and
write more than 30 or 32 sentences but it seems to be a very low level of motivation
inside of me. Eventually I lost most of my magic power during the contemplating
about who I should become during my dreams tonight.
I’m going to be a
zebra. Yes zebra and the hungry hyenas herd, Ta-da I am the wizard of my own
dreams.
Goodnight folks and see you in my secret world. Please watch
your back, I can be a newborn eagle again.
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